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Sheepy Xan Photo by XanSketchPad Sheepy Xan Photo :iconxansketchpad:XanSketchPad 2 1 Highwayman Ponyfied by XanSketchPad Highwayman Ponyfied :iconxansketchpad:XanSketchPad 0 0 Loneliness by XanSketchPad Loneliness :iconxansketchpad:XanSketchPad 0 6 Under A Blood Red Sky by XanSketchPad Under A Blood Red Sky :iconxansketchpad:XanSketchPad 2 5
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The Tree
The wind whistled, sending icy knife-like gusts through her branches. The old honeysuckle tree shuddered, clinging to her leaves like the tatters of a cloak. Her thin twigs reach out, trying to grab at a few withered and brown tatters as they get ripped from her. She lets out a hiss as she shivers. The nest she lovingly cradled, keeping safe during the summer now was forgotten as she let it slip to the ground. The cold was breaking her apart. Winter was just starting and she felt it already lingered on too long.
It felt like a lifetime ago that she bore creamy perfumed blossoms in her bright emerald hair. Felt like centuries since birds sang with her and bees wrote odes to her beauty. She knew she was in trouble when autumn came and a sharp blade snipped and cut at her branches, she knew without them, the winter would be colder. She fought and resisted, hoping the woman that was brutalizing her would tire and stop tormenting her so. Silently, she screamed but the woman couldn’t h
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Valentines Day -Follow You Into The Dark by XanSketchPad Valentines Day -Follow You Into The Dark :iconxansketchpad:XanSketchPad 0 2 Taeko in Paint by XanSketchPad Taeko in Paint :iconxansketchpad:XanSketchPad 0 0 Taeko In Pencil by XanSketchPad Taeko In Pencil :iconxansketchpad:XanSketchPad 0 0 Rainy Seduction by XanSketchPad
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Aidyn Lounging by XanSketchPad Aidyn Lounging :iconxansketchpad:XanSketchPad 0 0
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The Uncrushed Bloom
Xan leans back in her chair, staring out at the snows. Her golden eyes lacked the fire and light of her normal spirit. They now were dull and almost green and ancient.  In her palm was a beautiful bloom, not wilting. It had not shown any sign of decay since the moment it found her in that distant land. It was a promise of love, one she didn’t deserve.  Her shoulders shake, gripping the flower tightly, trying to crush it as if destroying it would end the feelings of guilt and remorse.  Yet, it refused to be crushed in the hand of the damned angel, it just let off it’s sweet perfume. She looks at the flowered ring on her hand and chokes back a sob. “Stop it… l…let me break free so I do not keep hurting you…. Let me grant eternity to you and the others and I disappear as I should.” No matter how she pried, the ring wouldn’t come off the raw sore finger. She weeps into her hands, honeyed tears watering the bloom.
She doesn
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Not Alone by XanSketchPad Not Alone :iconxansketchpad:XanSketchPad 0 0 Napping by XanSketchPad Napping :iconxansketchpad:XanSketchPad 0 10 Xan and Lunasol Sketch by XanSketchPad Xan and Lunasol Sketch :iconxansketchpad:XanSketchPad 1 7 Jock and Xan by XanSketchPad Jock and Xan :iconxansketchpad:XanSketchPad 0 0 Xan and Blaise by XanSketchPad Xan and Blaise :iconxansketchpad:XanSketchPad 1 0

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The Happy Camper by CatkinSvedka The Happy Camper :iconcatkinsvedka:CatkinSvedka 9 8 Page 113 A new Morph by Clayton41 Page 113 A new Morph :iconclayton41:Clayton41 1 1 Roy G Biv by ajpenrose Roy G Biv :iconajpenrose:ajpenrose 3 7 Joker Clari by ajpenrose Joker Clari :iconajpenrose:ajpenrose 12 4 Proposed Comic Cover by Clayton41 Proposed Comic Cover :iconclayton41:Clayton41 3 1 Page 101 forget by Clayton41 Page 101 forget :iconclayton41:Clayton41 1 2 Size matters by ajpenrose Size matters :iconajpenrose:ajpenrose 4 6 Page 81  Talking to strangers? by Clayton41 Page 81 Talking to strangers? :iconclayton41:Clayton41 1 8 Evil Bunny by ajpenrose
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Vote incentive by Clayton41 Vote incentive :iconclayton41:Clayton41 2 2 Improbable Island: Jake the Boxer by QuintessentialQuinn Improbable Island: Jake the Boxer :iconquintessentialquinn:QuintessentialQuinn 3 1 Page68  That's my girl by Clayton41 Page68 That's my girl :iconclayton41:Clayton41 3 4 Page67  Toss me dick'ed by Clayton41
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Page 65  Dark being...Dark by Clayton41
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Silent Hallway by LesterRoquefort Silent Hallway :iconlesterroquefort:LesterRoquefort 1 3 Darra and the Rose Bush by ajpenrose
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This is an art account for a fictional character, most of the journal entries unless marked OOC are written from her point of view. All the art is done by me.

I use a touch pad on my notebook computer to draw so the art will not be good by any standard. I can not afford a tablet though I want one extremely bad. I have been on DeviantArt for 8 years, not very active on my main account :iconxan-chan: but every now and then I will post... especially my traditional work and poetry.
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(Major whiny post, please do disregard. I am keeping it up as to show what a bitch I am when I am feeling all butt hurt.)

May as well quit the island... the second person just messaged me and told me they were going to move on from my characters because I have been on hiatus due to being burnt out and stress. I told them I would be back, I just needed to sort my shit out, not good enough for them. Okay, let me break it down for everyone.

I am BURNT OUT. Anytime I get on, I either get hounded for attention then guilt-tripped if I am busy.... or I get out and out ignored. I am sorry. It burnt me out because I also had a shit ton of stress IRL. I don't mean, "Meh... just a little stressed." but... "If one more thing goes wrong, I will seriously swallow every pill in this fucking house and slit my wrists up to the elbow and then jump off a bridge." Yes. I am DEAD serious. Some of you have been understanding but too many have not been.

I am beyond pissed off that I can not appease you all, I want nothing more than to get online, spend time with you all and not feel like I am drowning in my damn problems. I HATE feeling like this. I love Improbable Island, but when I am suffering like this, I can not go on there or I will get myself banned. So, if you are going to move on from my characters, fine, safe journeys to you and your kin. If you give a damn and stay, then thank you.

(I am not going to quit, I am mostly just ranting and getting it out instead of letting it build and fester. Yes, I had a mental breakdown and went into hiding but doing so just made the problem worse. By hiding, it made it build and fester. People HAVE reached out to me, wanting to help me but due to how I was thinking and feeling, I was blind to it. Those that did leave, they were right to do so. I was being a petulant ass-hat and not listening. Am I ready to return to the island? Far from it but I do need to TRY. If I TRY but fail, then so be it. Better to try then fail than not try and fail automatically. I am a real mess but, I do not want to be like this.

Those that want time with Xan, you will get time when I am able to give it. She has many people she has to see, people that mean a lot to her or she loves. If you get butt-hurt and leave, well, you knew the risk... yeah, I will feel like shit but not so much that you left but that I made you feel like you were not worthwhile. Those that want to see Talla, she needs to get out and see others... I need to cultivate her REAL personality and I can't do that by keeping her in hiding. Those waiting to see Taeko, she too needs to cultivate her personality. Xander Vega.... I need to find his password again. Lady Envy lost her password too. Actually, several of my alts need to be remade but I am not in any rush unless I need them immediately and since only Xan, Talla, and Taeko get much attention, those are the ones I will be on the most. Please understand I do have a real life and I also have issues mentally that hinder me. Also, know that if I am having to be on two characters at the same time, I am likely to be slow at typing because it doesn't update right.)

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CatkinSvedka Featured By Owner Jun 17, 2017  Hobbyist General Artist
Thanks for the fave on The Happy Camper, Xan. :love:
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CatkinSvedka Featured By Owner Oct 24, 2016  Hobbyist General Artist
Happy Birthday! :hug:
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CatkinSvedka Featured By Owner Oct 24, 2015  Hobbyist General Artist
Happy Birthday, hun! :love:
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XanSketchPad Featured By Owner Oct 24, 2015  Hobbyist General Artist
Thank you dear, means a lot to me.
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CatkinSvedka Featured By Owner Oct 24, 2015  Hobbyist General Artist
You're welcome! :hug:
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JimThen Featured By Owner Aug 5, 2015  Hobbyist Writer
Hey Xan! Thanks for stopping by and faving my Baby Croc! :D
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CatkinSvedka Featured By Owner May 21, 2015  Hobbyist General Artist
Thanks for the fave, hun! :heart:
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NyanNovaXD Featured By Owner May 13, 2015  Hobbyist Writer
Thanks for the fave! But a comment Could've been nicer >.< But i greatly appreciate the fave! ^`^
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CatkinSvedka Featured By Owner Edited May 11, 2015  Hobbyist General Artist
Thanks for the fave, hun! :heart:

Btw, you can use <da:deviation id="523782937"> in your DeviantID to get a big version of my Improbable Island fan button, using :thumb(id): or :bigthumb(id): don't always cut it, you know. We got to promote II big, right?! :D
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XanSketchPad Featured By Owner May 11, 2015  Hobbyist General Artist
But of course I faved it, it's our sexy story.
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