Shop Mobile More Submit  Join Login
About Varied / Hobbyist May I sketch you?36/Female/United States Recent Activity
Deviant for 6 Years
Needs Core Membership
Statistics 43 Deviations 330 Comments 5,174 Pageviews
×

Newest Deviations

Sheepy Xan Photo by XanSketchPad Sheepy Xan Photo :iconxansketchpad:XanSketchPad 2 1 Highwayman Ponyfied by XanSketchPad Highwayman Ponyfied :iconxansketchpad:XanSketchPad 0 0 Loneliness by XanSketchPad Loneliness :iconxansketchpad:XanSketchPad 0 6 Under A Blood Red Sky by XanSketchPad Under A Blood Red Sky :iconxansketchpad:XanSketchPad 2 5
Literature
The Tree
The wind whistled, sending icy knife-like gusts through her branches. The old honeysuckle tree shuddered, clinging to her leaves like the tatters of a cloak. Her thin twigs reach out, trying to grab at a few withered and brown tatters as they get ripped from her. She lets out a hiss as she shivers. The nest she lovingly cradled, keeping safe during the summer now was forgotten as she let it slip to the ground. The cold was breaking her apart. Winter was just starting and she felt it already lingered on too long.
It felt like a lifetime ago that she bore creamy perfumed blossoms in her bright emerald hair. Felt like centuries since birds sang with her and bees wrote odes to her beauty. She knew she was in trouble when autumn came and a sharp blade snipped and cut at her branches, she knew without them, the winter would be colder. She fought and resisted, hoping the woman that was brutalizing her would tire and stop tormenting her so. Silently, she screamed but the woman couldn’t h
:iconXanSketchPad:XanSketchPad
:iconxansketchpad:XanSketchPad 0 0
Valentines Day -Follow You Into The Dark by XanSketchPad Valentines Day -Follow You Into The Dark :iconxansketchpad:XanSketchPad 0 2 Taeko in Paint by XanSketchPad Taeko in Paint :iconxansketchpad:XanSketchPad 0 0 Taeko In Pencil by XanSketchPad Taeko In Pencil :iconxansketchpad:XanSketchPad 0 0 Rainy Seduction by XanSketchPad
Mature content
Rainy Seduction :iconxansketchpad:XanSketchPad 0 0
Aidyn Lounging by XanSketchPad Aidyn Lounging :iconxansketchpad:XanSketchPad 0 0
Literature
The Uncrushed Bloom
Xan leans back in her chair, staring out at the snows. Her golden eyes lacked the fire and light of her normal spirit. They now were dull and almost green and ancient.  In her palm was a beautiful bloom, not wilting. It had not shown any sign of decay since the moment it found her in that distant land. It was a promise of love, one she didn’t deserve.  Her shoulders shake, gripping the flower tightly, trying to crush it as if destroying it would end the feelings of guilt and remorse.  Yet, it refused to be crushed in the hand of the damned angel, it just let off it’s sweet perfume. She looks at the flowered ring on her hand and chokes back a sob. “Stop it… l…let me break free so I do not keep hurting you…. Let me grant eternity to you and the others and I disappear as I should.” No matter how she pried, the ring wouldn’t come off the raw sore finger. She weeps into her hands, honeyed tears watering the bloom.
She doesn
:iconXanSketchPad:XanSketchPad
:iconxansketchpad:XanSketchPad 2 8
Not Alone by XanSketchPad Not Alone :iconxansketchpad:XanSketchPad 0 0 Napping by XanSketchPad Napping :iconxansketchpad:XanSketchPad 0 10 Xan and Lunasol Sketch by XanSketchPad Xan and Lunasol Sketch :iconxansketchpad:XanSketchPad 1 7 Jock and Xan by XanSketchPad Jock and Xan :iconxansketchpad:XanSketchPad 0 0 Xan and Blaise by XanSketchPad Xan and Blaise :iconxansketchpad:XanSketchPad 1 0

Favourites

Diversity! by ajpenrose Diversity! :iconajpenrose:ajpenrose 2 1
Journal
Island commissions
Attention Improbable Islanders!
I've started taking commissions. Send me a distraction in-game and we can discuss it. Here are the things you'll need to know first.
1) My base price is $20 USD (PayPal) or equivalent in-game supporter points (2000 SP). That'll get you your basic anime-style character and a flat(tish) colour background. (I prefer SP because I think Joe deserves it.)
2) Add-ons can be negotiated but might be something like an extra $10 for a full background or another character in the same image. If you have oodles of spare cash, talk to me about a non-anime, realistic, painterly portrait.
3) If you're poor, talk to me and we'll negotiate something. A flat-colour bust might be more within your price range.
4) I squish in art-time when I can. So if you can be patient, that's wonderful, but if you have a specific deadline, let me know up front.
5) I'll send you a sketch to approve. All requests for changes other than colour must be made at this stage. When I send you the 'f
:iconajpenrose:ajpenrose
:iconajpenrose:ajpenrose 2 0
The Happy Camper by CatkinSvedka The Happy Camper :iconcatkinsvedka:CatkinSvedka 9 8 Page 113 A new Morph by Clayton41 Page 113 A new Morph :iconclayton41:Clayton41 1 2 Roy G Biv by ajpenrose Roy G Biv :iconajpenrose:ajpenrose 3 7 Joker Clari by ajpenrose Joker Clari :iconajpenrose:ajpenrose 12 4 Proposed Comic Cover by Clayton41 Proposed Comic Cover :iconclayton41:Clayton41 3 1 Page 101 forget by Clayton41 Page 101 forget :iconclayton41:Clayton41 1 2 Size matters by ajpenrose Size matters :iconajpenrose:ajpenrose 4 6 Page 81  Talking to strangers? by Clayton41 Page 81 Talking to strangers? :iconclayton41:Clayton41 1 8 Evil Bunny by ajpenrose
Mature content
Evil Bunny :iconajpenrose:ajpenrose 3 11
Vote incentive by Clayton41 Vote incentive :iconclayton41:Clayton41 2 2 Improbable Island: Jake the Boxer by QuintessentialQuinn Improbable Island: Jake the Boxer :iconquintessentialquinn:QuintessentialQuinn 3 1 Page68  That's my girl by Clayton41 Page68 That's my girl :iconclayton41:Clayton41 3 4 Page67  Toss me dick'ed by Clayton41
Mature content
Page67 Toss me dick'ed :iconclayton41:Clayton41 2 3
Page 65  Dark being...Dark by Clayton41
Mature content
Page 65 Dark being...Dark :iconclayton41:Clayton41 2 1

Activity


I have come to a very painful decision. My art... heh, if one could call it that... is not improving, not profitable, and unwanted. My art gets handed off to better artists to be done in their style. That's fine... but I just can not afford to keep wasting money on the supplies. This is a choice I should have made years ago, it just.. didn't feel right to give up my passion but it came to me today as my beloved wanted me to break down my art so his favorite artist could draw my characters. He meant it as a gift to me but I stupidly got mad about it. So... I quit art. And soon, I will quit writing. I have upset my boyfriend... but I fear he and I are about to break up because I will never be good enough for him or for anyone. I just can't keep going anymore. I really can't. Everything just hurts too much. If I never talk to you again, I love you. Even those of you that ignore me, I love you. You all did nothing wrong. It was me who was too weak and worthless. Be good to each other.... protect each other.

deviantID

XanSketchPad's Profile Picture
XanSketchPad
May I sketch you?
Artist | Hobbyist | Varied
United States
Improbable Island Fan Button by CatkinSvedka
This is an art account for a fictional character, most of the journal entries unless marked OOC are written from her point of view. All the art is done by me.

I use a touch pad on my notebook computer to draw so the art will not be good by any standard. I can not afford a tablet though I want one extremely bad. I have been on DeviantArt for 8 years, not very active on my main account :iconxan-chan: but every now and then I will post... especially my traditional work and poetry.
Interests
I have come to a very painful decision. My art... heh, if one could call it that... is not improving, not profitable, and unwanted. My art gets handed off to better artists to be done in their style. That's fine... but I just can not afford to keep wasting money on the supplies. This is a choice I should have made years ago, it just.. didn't feel right to give up my passion but it came to me today as my beloved wanted me to break down my art so his favorite artist could draw my characters. He meant it as a gift to me but I stupidly got mad about it. So... I quit art. And soon, I will quit writing. I have upset my boyfriend... but I fear he and I are about to break up because I will never be good enough for him or for anyone. I just can't keep going anymore. I really can't. Everything just hurts too much. If I never talk to you again, I love you. Even those of you that ignore me, I love you. You all did nothing wrong. It was me who was too weak and worthless. Be good to each other.... protect each other.

Journal History

Groups

Comments


Add a Comment:
 
:iconcatkinsvedka:
CatkinSvedka Featured By Owner Jun 17, 2017  Hobbyist General Artist
Thanks for the fave on The Happy Camper, Xan. :love:
Reply
:iconcatkinsvedka:
CatkinSvedka Featured By Owner Oct 24, 2016  Hobbyist General Artist
Happy Birthday! :hug:
Reply
:iconcatkinsvedka:
CatkinSvedka Featured By Owner Oct 24, 2015  Hobbyist General Artist
Happy Birthday, hun! :love:
Reply
:iconxansketchpad:
XanSketchPad Featured By Owner Oct 24, 2015  Hobbyist General Artist
Thank you dear, means a lot to me.
Reply
:iconcatkinsvedka:
CatkinSvedka Featured By Owner Oct 24, 2015  Hobbyist General Artist
You're welcome! :hug:
Reply
:iconjimthen:
JimThen Featured By Owner Aug 5, 2015  Hobbyist Writer
Hey Xan! Thanks for stopping by and faving my Baby Croc! :D
Reply
:iconcatkinsvedka:
CatkinSvedka Featured By Owner May 21, 2015  Hobbyist General Artist
Thanks for the fave, hun! :heart:
Reply
:iconnyannovaxd:
NyanNovaXD Featured By Owner May 13, 2015  Hobbyist Writer
Thanks for the fave! But a comment Could've been nicer >.< But i greatly appreciate the fave! ^`^
Reply
:iconcatkinsvedka:
CatkinSvedka Featured By Owner Edited May 11, 2015  Hobbyist General Artist
Thanks for the fave, hun! :heart:

Btw, you can use <da:deviation id="523782937"> in your DeviantID to get a big version of my Improbable Island fan button, using :thumb(id): or :bigthumb(id): don't always cut it, you know. We got to promote II big, right?! :D
Reply
:iconxansketchpad:
XanSketchPad Featured By Owner May 11, 2015  Hobbyist General Artist
But of course I faved it, it's our sexy story.
Reply
Add a Comment: